"It's not dress rehearsal.
Live the life you've imagined"
Today I was singing in the shower :) and I began to think about life. Just life itself. It's truly amazing how we're born, we live, we die and then our exsistence is obsolete. Sure I believe there is a heaven like many others do. But we'll never be on earth as a human or the same person ever again. We only get to live everyday once. I will never again live January 7, 2005. I only get one shot to live my life and live it to its fullest. I just feel like I now have a new outlook on life. This is my life and I can only live it once. Damnit, I need to live it the best I can and for as long as I can! I want to make a difference in this world, help other people fulfill their lives. There's so many things that one person can achieve. If everyone lived their life to the fullest, the world would be so much more amazing. Okay, I'm getting a tad off track now. Anyways, I just came to the realization that I only have one shot so I need to make it right and do it the best I possibly ever could. So I am going to continue working out and making my body the best it possibly can be because I'll only have this body once. I am going to work even harder in school because I'll only be in the 8th grade once. I am going to eat healthier because I'll only have this heart once. I am going to make an effort to make as many friends as possible because these other people will only live once too and I want to be a part of as many lives as possible. I say these things with true intentions, but who knows, tomorrow I could wake up and hate life. These may end up to just be empty promises to myself, but hopefully not.
I worked out today for the first time since mid-december. :) I had been working out real good for a month or so and then I became lazy and took a break. But now I'm back to working out. I realized that summer is only 6 months away. So I have to get crackin' if I want hot-ass abs for my bikini. lol. It's not that I hate my body or anything, I just want to improve it- make it better. I mean, dude, I'm 5'6", a size 5, and 120 pounds, I think I need to lose like 10 pounds, eh? I'm mostly working out for myself to help boost my confidence and have more pride in my body. But I must admit that peer pressure still plays a big part in me working out & I'm willing to admit that. I'm usually not one to break under peer pressure, but dang, our society really pushes for the perfect skinny image. It really is fuct up how our society thinks(that sounds like a lyric, ha ha), even I have broke under it's pressure. I can only imagine how many girls are right now worrying about their weight, becoming bulimic or anorexic - it's so sad. Even my friends have e.d. now. I mean, I would never have an ED because I'm smarter than that. But there's so many people out there who are just living their lives on hopes of reaching the "perfect image" of a body. bleh, I do this all the time. I babble on and on so much that I don't even know what I'm saying anymore and it makes no sense. lol. so sorry about that confusing ramble................
I wanna dye my hair soon. My highlights that I got in June have faded and I wanna just dye all of my hair to the color it was when I was younger. A nice dark blonde. There's just something about blonde hair that I adore and miss. So it's either that or I'll use my mom's hair dye that she doesn't want to dye my hair a strawberry-blonde, which is something I've always pondered about. I'm sure none of you care about my hair. lol. so.....
I got an ipod for christmas! I love it so much!!! I only have like 400 songs on it right now, but it's so awsome! I've also fallen in love with Green day(thus my layout theme). I got "American Idiot" and "Warning" Which are both extremly awsome cds. Their songs literaly make me get off my ass and dance around! eek! I love exploring a new band, it's so exciting and fabulous! woot. that's an awsome word...fabulous.........
That Vh1 commercial where they take all different videos and make the peoples' mouthes move so that they look like they're singing along to the song is so cool!!! :)